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So. Logos #2. After all the work I put into it, it paid off. Not in the same way as last time, in me recognizing how happy I am… because I already new that. More than anything, it was wonderful to witness the change in some people- people that we thought had totally closed their hearts to any sort of love.

On one side it amazes me that we actually did it. We ACTUALLY got these people to hug and jump and laugh and share and love. Ive had a few retreatants come to me and say they appreciate what I did, and I almost feel overwhelmed because its hard to believe that I had anything do to with their experience… But then, I realize that I truly gave all my love to these people. Maybe I did help in their lives. And this is what Im supposed to do. Stephen put it best: I have so much love to give. Its rewarding to see that love accepted by others.

I didnt come out of the last retreat feeling all lovey for everyone. But on this one, I feel like I came out with a lot closer bonds than I could ever imagine, with many many people. And lastly, I love Stephen more now than I ever thought was possible. Seeing him interact with others- the true caring he has for others- was phenomenal. Not only that, but I can tell that he loves me more than before too. He said he saw something in me that was brilliant… well, he saw me doing exactly what I wanted to be doing- loving and helping others.

Logos #2. I couldnt ask for a better experience!

 PS. I guess Im not done yet… So here are three very small moments Ive been thinking of that I never want to forget:

1. Mark, a scientific atheist, coming up to me after my talk, giving me a hug and whispering “I am happy for you, Hatti” After worrying so much about his reaction to my talk, I couldnt have hoped for a more comforting one.
2. Ernie, the retired principal of Benet, holding my head and saying “Do you know why God gave us eyes in the front of our heads? So we look to the future. The past is over, just look for whats coming”
3.  Hugging Stephen during Sign of Peace. The love between us is undeniable. Period.

Thats it for now… I think