Relieved.

so i finally told stephen about jay- the whole truth about him. i was really afraid to. my body got hot and sweaty and i could barely form words. but my secret… the past that i so much regret, what finally revealed.

now?

i feel so relieved. is obvious simply in the amount of times that ive talked about jay in these blogs that as much as i try to forget him, what we did still bothers me. and on the other side, i could tell that it bothered stephen that someone was there before i was. nothing had ever been spoken about it, and although there was never tension between us, it secretly hurt each of us personally.

now that the truth is out, we can both be at peace… because we KNOW what happened, we can ACCEPT it, and we can MOVE ON. it doesnt matter anymore. and neither of us will be bothered by it.

nice